Two years ago, about this time, I was preparing for two huge events in my life. One, I was preparing for a missions trip to Kenya through Bible Quizzing. And two, I was preparing to go to college. And now, here I am, two years later, preparing for another huge event in my life– an event that is a direct result of the latter and is deeply influenced by the former aforementioned events.
In less than 2 hours, I will be getting on a bus to drive to Toronto to board a plane in order to embark on an adventure of a lifetime. An adventure that presents a once in a Brazilian chance. And yes, in case you haven’t figured it out by now, I’ll be heading to Brazil for a few weeks with a group of students from my college.
Two years ago, about the same time I was preparing for Kenya and college, I was given the opportunity to be in the honors program at college, which included a trip to Brazil at the end of our second year. But, if I’m being perfectly honest, that’s not the main reason why I joined the program (which is a story for another time). In fact, it wasn’t until a few days ago that I even really wanted to go. It seemed like more of a hassle than an opportunity– I had summer plans and it seemed like this trip would get in the way. But, the deadline to back out without having to front the money for reimbursement came and went, so, now I’m going to Brazil– whether I’m excited or not. (Fear not, I am mostly excited.)
Obviously, I would not have the opportunity to go to Brazil if, two years ago, I had not prepared for college. But, less obviously, I would not be prepared to go to Brazil if, two years ago, I had not prepared to go to Kenya.
After I returned from Kenya, I reflected on all God had taught me. But one of the greatest things I learned is that somehow, I feel that I’m in a constant state of restlessness.
My ADHD often makes me feel restless at night– my brain doesn’t shut up so my body can’t shut down. My body feels restless during the day for the same reason. I am constantly moving around, fidgeting with something or other, and noticing my mind wandering a million directions all at one time. And, recently, I’ve realized how restless my spirit feels. Sometimes, it just wants to run. It wants to run not away from anything, but rather toward things. It wants to run toward all the people, places, and experiences it can. In fact, as of now, the majority of the grad schools I am looking into are out of state– like far out of state. Because the world is so much bigger than Chili– so much bigger than Rochester. And Kenya was the first time I experienced this restlessness– and I’ve been experiencing it ever since.
So, I look forward to Brazil with excitement, anticipation, and a bit of nerves. Unlike while in Kenya, I don’t get to teach Bible Quizzing (the passion of my life). But, rather, I get to learn this time. I get to take lessons on language and culture. I get to eat delicious food, talk to delightful people, and even do some teaching of my own. For our job shadowing experience, I get to teach science lessons at the local school. I get to experience their church services (which I am really excited about), and I get to do some volunteering. So, I’m excited.
I’m excited because I get to satisfy some of this restlessness I feel by getting away. I’m excited because I get to experience another culture. And, I’m excited because, for at least a few weeks, I can get away from all the stress, uncertainty, emotions, and chaos that has been my life for the past few months.
I’m excited to see what Brazil will bring, and I’m excited to see what God will do! If you want to keep up with the trip blog (featuring blogs written by those I’m travelling with and maybe some by me), the link can be found here.
So, prayers would be appreciated. And I’m hoping to have some good stories when I return!